Reason.........

What is the reason to do or not to do a certain thing.
What is the reason to feel or not to feel a certain way.
Is it because we have a reason to, or because we dont have a reason not to?
Why am I feeling like this? i sit because I have a reason to or because i don't have a reason to feel otherwise?
Why am I getting married? Is it because I have a reason to? or is it because I don't have a reason not to.
I dont love him............. I feel absolutely nothing. At times I don't understand. I dont get his jokes or him either............ Then why am I doing this? What is the reason?
Why should I not do it? What is the reason for that?
Why do I feel this way? Is it because I love him or is it because I dont want to give it up. cannot stop standing for it, clinging on... like he always said.
I dont have a reason for any of this...........