Unsaid......

why did u go away.....far away....
“It’s good for you. It’s good for me.”“Yes. Some people just aren’t supposed to be together....”(We never told each other practically.)“....but I still want to be with you.” He left unsaid.“Please stay here, in front of me, for two more minutes.I will try to live my entire life in these two minutes.” I unsaid.
“All right. I will have to go now.”“Please don’t go.” He unsaid.“Please stop me. Please ask me not to go.” I unsaid.“I’ll take care of you.” He said“No. I can’t give you another chance. I can’t stay now.”“Are you sure?”“Yes.”“When will we meet again?” He unsaid.“Please tell me it’s just a bad dream. Tell me I will wake up.” I unsaid.
I averted my eyes, lest the tears drop.He noticed how that single lock of hairbrushed against my cheeks.And it reminded him of the numerous times he had pulled them.“Give me a hug, you stupid boy!” I unsaid.“You are so beautiful.” He unsaid, wishing he could pull me closer just one more time.
“...I am a strong practical girl.... I am a strong practical girl...It will be ok....It will be ok in a while...” I muttered to myself under my breath.
“I think you don’t realize what you have done.”“Yes. I loved you so much. Did everything for you”“Why were you not strong enough?”“Why didn’t you hold my hand?”“Why didn’t you wipe my tears?”Where were you when I needed you the most?”
All these questions still unanswered……..Still unsaid….
“I will miss your ‘LOVE’ and ‘CARE’ messages,” I unsaid.I searched my stuff for the old memorieswhich, I was aware, once I foundwould bring him close to me once again, forever.“I wish we could have been together. For now. Forever.” I unsaid.
I came back, I am waiting for a miracle,I am still waiting, I don’t know for how long I have to?”
We saw each other once again“I know you still love me”, I unsiadAnd we holded each other, Everything unsaid.“Yes. I don’t want to go either.” I unsaid.And for that one momentAll reasons dissolvedI thought about the first time he had held my hand.He realized this was the last time and we would be holding them forever now...“I will miss you.” He unsaid.“I will miss you too.” I unsaid.
Waiting to be together forever now…..
One occassion. One song. Two people.Brought together by fate.And when I turned to separate,I did not look back.Although I wanted to, just to knowIf he had looked back too.
My first tear fell on those very handsHe had held just moments ago.I know not where my second fell...
Furiously wiping away at my faceThat was now stinging with hot incessant tearsI wished that just for one tiny day of my lifeI could be the special girl of GOD who could get her love back.
He is in my bloodOne thing I can’t forgetI love him so much and this no one would understandWhy am I supposed to go away?This is still unsaid…For the reason he wants me back I still can’t give my hand…
“Is this fate?” I said“No, this is Love”, which is now unsaid…….

Tu Jaane na............

Heard this song with my eyes closed amidst the silence of the night
Heard this song in the din of daytime
Heard it when I was high
Heard it when I was low
Heard it alone
Heard it in a crowd
Whenever I heard this song... It evoked the same feeling.....
Everytime it reminded me of you.
Every time I could see my self mouthing it to you and see you smile....

Each time I tried to decipher the smile to understand what it means.
I failed each time.
I love you.

Its a beautiful song.

Kaise bataye kyun tujhko chaheYaara bata na paayeBaatein dilon ki zuban aankhon ki tujhe samjhayenTu jaane naTu jaane na
Tu jaane naTu jaane na
hmmMil ke bhihum na mileTumse na jane kyunMilon ki hai fasleTumse hai jaane kyunAnjane hain silsileTum se na jaane kyunSapne hai palkon taleTum se na jaane kyun
Kaise bataye kyun tujhko chaheYaara bata na paayeBaatein dilon ki dekhon zuban ki aankhe tujhe samjhayenTu jaane naTu jaane na
Tu jaane naTu jaane na
Nigahon mein dekho meri Jo har bas gayaWoh hai milta tumse hoo bahuooo Jane teri aankhen thi uaya baatein thi wajahHuye tum jo dil ki arzoooTum paas ho ke bhiTum aas ho ke bhiehsaaas ho ke bhiApne nahi
Aise hai apne gileTum se na jane kyunMilon ki hai fasleTumse hai jaane kyunTu jaane naTu jaane na
Tu jaane naTu jaane na
Khayalon mein lakhon bateinYun keh gayaBol kuch na tere samneOO Ohuye na begane bhi tum
ho ke Aur keDekho tum mere hi baneAfsoos hotaDil bhi yeh rota haiSapne sanjota haiPagla hua soche yehhum the milTum se na jane kyun
Milon ki hai fasleTumse hai jaane kyunAnjane hain silsileTum se na jaane kyunSapne hai palkon taleTum se na jaane kyun
OO
Kaise bataye kyun tujhko chaheYaara bata na paayeBaatein dilon ki dekhon zuban ki aankhe tujhe samjhayenTu jaane naTu jaane na
Tu jaane naTu jaane na

:)

Tum may-re liye mar chuke ho

Sara sheher mujhe lion ke naam se jaanta hai

Dosti Main No Sorry No Thank you

Kabhi Kabhi jeetne ke liye harna bhi padtha hain. Harkar jeetne waley ko
Baazigar kehte hain

Yeh Dhai kilo ka haath jab padta hai to Aadmi utha nahi uth jata hai

Picture abhi Baaki Hain Mere Dost

Don ko Pakadna Mushkil Hi Nahin Namoomkin Hain

Main tumharay bina mar jaa-oongi

Mogambo Khush Hua

Mere Paas Maa Hain

Kitne Aadmi They

Mai tumharay bachhe ki maa ban-nay waali hoon!

Puliss meray peechay lagi hui hai

Bataoo, heeray kahan hai

Yeh anyay hai bhagwan

Main tera khoon pee jaaonga!

Mai tumhara ehasaan zindagi bhar nahin bhuloonga / bhuloongi

Bhagwaan. Maine aaj tak tumse kuchh nahin maanga. Aaj pehli baar...

Chilla. Aur chilla. Tumhari awaz kiseeko bhee sunayi nahin degi. Ab tumhe Bhagwaan bhi bachaa nahin sakta.

Tareekh Pe Tareekh, Tareekh Pe Tareekh

Maa. Mai B.A. first class me paas hogaya hun. (Followed by...) Mujhhe tum par naaz hai beta...Lo. Moo meethha kar lo...Sau saal jiyo... Khaash...(sob)....Aaaj tumhare pitaaji zinda hote, woh kitne khush hote. .............

A visit to the Soothsayer

I had never even imagined that I would go to an astrologer. I know and believe that astrology is an exact science but never really trusted that Celtic predictions could be true or hold meaning. I firmly believed that what had to happen..... had to happen and there was no point knowing. If your stars had sealed your fate, so be it.

Some time back I visited one.

Why would some one want to know whats coming? To know when a bad phase will end. To gauge whether an agreement is destined to work. When will wealth flow? Why is someone ill? What is the future of my loved one like? There can be a million reasons.

I did not have any.

A friend just mentioned turmoil and we decided to go.I was a little unsure, a little nervous, a little anxious and a little bit of me was even excited....

We entered. It was not what I had expected. No red tilak on the forehead, no rudraksh beads, no long birth charts. No puja mandir. It was a pleasant home. A very courteous lady and a laptop.

I went first. Cited my date, time and place of birth and waited. My head was working in a frenzy.Probably I was processing in my head what I wanted to hear. Hoping she would say this. Say that. But say what? I couldn't pin point. I went red in my face. My ears were burning.

She looked at the charts, then at me and smiled. She asked me. "Beta, what do you want to know ?". I didn't know what I wanted to ask or even why I was here. ........

I shrugged.

She started............... I really wanted to grasp and hold on to every word she uttered but I felt like there was this membrane surrounding me that wouldn't let me understand, let me absorb what she was saying. She went on... I wanted her to continue and to stop at the same time. I wanted to know more... Know why... know how. I didn't want to know. I didn't want to condition my actions. I didn't want to know what to expect. I wanted life to go on as is.....

I was overwhelmed.

It took me a long time... rounds of reasoning..... acceptance and denial to understand and make peace with what life has in store for me.

But I am at peace now.
A lot calmer.
I have answers to questions that don't exist.
A direction to nowhere. ...................


I was a life changing experience for me....