Expressions..........

There is a dialouge in the movie "You've got mail" which I dont think I remember correctly but its interprettation is "always I have wanted to say things but never could find the right thing to say or didnt say it and always thought about it afterwards and regretted it. Today, I had to say something, I knew exatly what to say, and said it. But did'nt feel good about it."
I identify so much with this. All the time I've had things to say but didnt say it. many a times I didnt know what to say and what I should have said struck later.
In the times that I knew what to say and didnt say I wonder wether saying what i wanted to would have made me feel better. How much should one say, how much should one express is a question which comes to my mind often.
How much sould one expose her true self, How much scope of interprettation should one give, How much should one trust......... and how freely should one express.
I have been blatently honest and open to a point of being labelled as opinionated. I guess i took the leverage because I thought that the few would understand where I was coming frm and what I meant. Now I have come to realise that that too was just an illusion that I had, a realization that they too probably never knew where I came from and what I said , meant.
Do we even know wht we mean ourselves? Do we know ourselves? do we know our feelings? or do we live in the impressions and opinions that we have of ourselves?If not then how can i even say i was honest and open. I too was and am living in the image and opinion of my self. ..........
A full circle. I still have a lot to say.... a lot to express... a lot to write about... a lot to get clarity in my head about....
But the question of how much should i express? Wether I should say what I want to say? remains....Will the opinion and the Image I have of my self get and feel any better if I express or will I regrett saying exatly what i want to.

No Sleep.............

I have trying to fall asleep for quite some time now........

Tossing and turning around. Was in sound sleep. Dream t of something strange, something I can't even remember now.
Hav been trying to fall back to sleep since... its been two hours nd simply no sign of sleep.... Wiered gthoughts doing the rounds in my mind and all around........

Really feel like talking to someone.................... to anyone but there is no one I can call up. There are people I can call up and talk but I dont even know what I want to say and there is no body I can say that to at this hour of the night.....

Took out my laptop, put on some music and then didnt know what to do.... suddenly my very own forgotten blog came to my rescue.

Just my way of throwing whatever little is going on in my mind to the universe.......

So wassup.................... :)

feeling slightly better!!!!!!!!!!!!

Better get back to trying to sleep. Hav 2 get up at 6 in the morning :( can u beat that???

I hate early mornings. koi na. no point cribbing :)

So with a promise to be a little more regular and throw all my thoughts to you so that I can sleep peacefully (selfish me)

Signing offffffff.....................

Muah...................