"I really wish I had a car today" you said. It was raining.... "I wish I could drive while holding your hand. I wish I had lots of stuff in the car." You smiled "especially food, and a warm blanket".
"We would drive on and on......."
I have lived your thought a million times.
The water flowing off the windshield, casting shadows as mystical, as vague, as discerning as the thoughts in my mind. The trees forming our shielding canopy, fresh after a shower, showering abundance and blessings on us. Your hand in mine. An occasional glance at you. Your smile. The look in your eyes....
Like always we were quiet, in our own worlds.. far away... Yet so close........ One....... Whole.....
Lived it all over again. The rain, the lights, the food, the amazingly warm blanket, the trees... all there. Just as I had lived it in my thoughts.
There was no hand to hold..... No glances to steal... No smile..... No eyes... No faraway thoughts... No one beside me.... Alone... Empty....
And yet I could feel your presence. Hear your voice, Hear your smile, look into your eyes.
But I still wish you were here. . . . . .. . . . . .. . . . . . . . . .
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
25 things to do while I am 25.
1. Stop Defining, segmenting and bucketing who/what I am and what I am not... Live life as and when it comes and do what I want to at the moment.
2. Get a Wannabe Haircut
3. Lead a healthier lifestyle
4. Cook for myself and others. I have somehow just stopped cooking... All I ever make is Maggi, Bread and eggs and tea/coffee
5. Click more pictures. Including pictures of myself with that million dollar smile ;)
6. Enroll into a photography course / workshop and learn the Tricks.
7. Stop looking back to what it was/were. Just let go. Loosen myself
8. Attach less. Get Attached even less
9. Meet family more often. Even the people who I don’t like as much.
10. Have expectations only from Myself
11. Travel
12. Buy a vehicle
13. Start living on my own. And do up my home really well.
14. Dance without a reason or care
15. Get Married…… that’s the toughest… Whew. If alls well ;)
16. Listen to Mom and Dad and don’t be rude.
17. Work more professionally and passionately especially on what is in the kitty now
18. Be more organized. Too much clutter..... clear it
19. Eat healthier
20. Save money
21. Read more intellectually... Although I have been reading quite a lot, would like to read a little more intellectually(the stuff I brush off/find boring now)
22. Visit Taj Mahal and Golden Temple.
23. Watch more movies
24. Smile a lot. Laugh a lot.
25. Pray everyday and be thankful for everything.
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