Awakening .........

Nature has some strange effect on me. Wether it is rain, a hill, the sea, a stream, a lake, sunrise, sunset. . . .

I had lived alone for quite sometime (about 4 months) in this house before my flatmate moved in. It was strange. I liked it and hated it at the same time. The fun part was the feeling of independence, the feeling of space, getting closer to myself while I was living on my own. On the flip side was unlocking the door and entering an empty house every day, long phone bills, eating alone. . . When my flatmate moved in, it was a welcome change. We are from the same place, in similar places emotionally and chuddi buddies. It is fun being with her.

Suddenly, I was on my own again.... Long weekend. Flatmate out of town, friends caught up with something or the other. Didnt have the will or the interest to do anything. just hibernated the entire weekend. moved from being low to lower by the hour.

Sunday night I was restless and couldnt get sleep. So started watching movies. watched two... back to back. When the second got over, I looked at the time. 5:15 A.M. No sign of sleep. I was wide awake... I walked into my balcony. There was an aewsome breeze and I stood there...

The sky started turning from black to violet to grey... It was beautiful. I changed, grabbed my camera and wnt out for a walk to the park behind my place. It was almost deserted. I too off my footwear and walked on the dew laden grass. It was bliss. I could see the the sky lightening in the east. I lay down on the grass and watched the changing hues of the sky till it was bright. It was bliss.

The park started getting busier. people on their morning walks, some practicing yoga, some chatting in groups. The one thing I couldnt help but notice was zest for life on each face. I didnt see a glum face around.

I walked out of the park. Came back home. Picked up the newspaper and the milk at the door. Made myself a good breakfast of bread, eggs and tea. I was sitting on my balcony floor facing the very bright, radiant, warm sun and I felt joy. Oneness with myself. As if I had woken up to a new me..