Focus

I realised today that its been quite some time since I thought through something and put it here.Actually I logged in quite a few times, had certain things on my mind but somehow didn't pen them down.
Today I was introspecting, looking back to where I have come, thinking about where I want to be, who I am? what drives me?
I met someone today who said to me: There are two ways to life. One is to make it what you want it to be or to live it with what offers.
I have been thinking about it. Thinking about making it what I want it to be. Thinking about what I want and started listing it down.
Family is far away. Distance. Somewhere I have started feeling disconnected.I love them care about them talk to them everyday but still feel a distance. More like I know what is happening but not a part of it. They know whats happening but aren't involved. I know that they are there for me. Everything is going smooth at home after a long time. What do I want to change about the distance that has crept in. Nothing. I am kind of feeling strange as I am writing it down but I am comfortable with this distance.
Ummmm... Well I like my job. I crib about it(esp the money) but its nice. I don't want to be at a certain designation. Its kind of peaceful. I am looking up newer opportunities and they are opening up for me.
I don't like the money I make. I would like to make more money. But what do I want to do once I have more money? actually nothing. I am living a decent life. don't need a jazzy car or a mansion or whatever. So I am pretty content here.
Just yesterday (and again) someone asked me about marriage. Why did I / didn't I want it? What am I afraid of? What I am holding back? Whew!!! once in for all I want to tell everybody. NOTHING! I don't want to get married because i am of a certain age. I don't want to get married because a certain guy is everything that someone would want. I am not afraid of anything. I am not holding back. I should have a reason to get married. I don't want to get married just because I don't have a reason not to.
What else? actually nothing. So what do I plan for? What do I want my life to be?
I just figured it out. There is nothing that I want my life to be other than what it is.
Live it with what it offers:yeah.. Decent job, great friends, perfect family, good life, reading, working, teaching, exercising, food, new work opportunities, new challenges, praying, sleeping well, healthy, breathing, living life with what it has to offer.
Feels good. :)