Meaning

U dont mean as much......
We were never meant to be........

Then why is it that every morning that I get up I wish that I were in your arms, that you were smiling, that your eyes were twinkling.... Why are you the first thought that I have every morning.
Why is it that when I close my eyes every night I kiss you goodnight. Why do I clutch the pillow and put myself to sleep. Why is it that I chide myself to reality when I cringe at the thought that you are elsewhere with somebody else, wondering....
Why is it that I am not ready to accept that you are not mine.. were never..... will never be. Why is it that I can never see that you dont belong here, with me. Knowing that why do I look for reasons to be with you, to talk to you. Why is it that when you hold me I wish I died just then so that I dont have to wake up to you not being there.
why is it that I get upset so that you soothe me, act funny so that you straighten me, screw up so that you straighten it out, be careless so that you care.
Why is it that no one else, nothing else matters. Why is it that I can never walk into your life. Why is it that I dont know you. Why can not see you. Why am I not there for you? Why am not your friend?
Why do I then connect with you? Why does what you think and feel matter so much? Why do I love you? What is it?
what is the meaning of all of this????