This calls for a celebration

I want to celebrate...... have fun.......... go wild..........dance, shout , eat ..... go beserk.
I want to celebrate something. I want to celebrate with someone. I want to be happy.I want them to be happy for me. I want to have tears of joy. I want to see them beaming with pride.....

But there is nothing to celebrate, no one to celebrate it with. No reason, no occasion, no achievement...... nothing. Just plain and simple void. A void that eats me up. A strange loneliness envelops me. I look around and there is no one. No one to celebrate with, no one to laugh with, no hand to hold, no one who will cry with joy or beam with pride. No one, no reason...... to celebrate. No one who will say " This calls for a celebration" and celebrate with me.