WHY?????????

I sit and wonder. Why am I doing this? Why am I here? Why am writing? What am I doing? What do I intend to do? What is the purpose of my life? Where am I headed? What do I need? What do I want? What do Idesire? Why am i living?
I am just drifting. Every day just passes as it comes. today I dont know what i am going to do tomerrow or the day after or ever.
Every thing that i do is judt done. No thoughts before it, no thoughts after. What am i doing? What will be the consequences? What will be the repurcussions? Wether whatever I do is right, wether it is wrong? I am just doing it. Without looking back or forward. Where is my reason? Where is myself?
I feel I am moving, Where? I dont know. Then i feel , No, I was here. I was here all this while. And I am still standing here.
Then when I look around, I realize that I dont have anywhere to go. I dont have anything to look foward to. No plans. No goals. Nothing. Nothing to move towards. No pull.
Nothing..............
Absolutely nothing.
Was I always like this? Why am I like this?
No passion. No achievement. No drive. Nothing to die for.
Nothing.
Just nothing.
Just a void. A void which is enveloping me. A void in which I am falling deeper and deeper and I can't see the floor. I can't see where I am going to land.
I said "What is right is right and what is wrong is wrong and there is no transition between the two". I say"Do what your heart desires. If you want it, Its right". What is right? Or rather whichch one is right? who is right?
What do I listen to? What do I follow? who is ahead of me? Who behind? And who by my side? I live amongst who??????
The questions return. Who? Where? How? When? What?
No answers.
The only answer is an "ever" after each question.
Whoever.
Whereever.
However.
Whenever.
Whatever.